I guess that makes alot of sense.
Just because I'm willing to sacrifice certain things, doesn't mean I can expect or hold others to the same standard as well.
Unfortunately.
Which just makes life unfair, but I'll just have to learn not to lose my cool when things like that come my way..
...
♥♥
- Mood:
sleepy
So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
- Mood:
uncomfortable
Sometimes I wonder what the hell I'm doing with my life. I know I'm a particularly bad friend, I forget birthdays, forget to send letters, reply fb messages, etc.
Then again, when I try so hard, sometimes things happen that just make me think that it's not worth it at all. Sometimes I feel like I don't know who I can believe in; when people that I look on as "friends" do not seem to care.. Makes me wonder what I am to everyone. How is it possible to move on to other people and forget friendships so easily?
For those of you guys that have been always there, I thank you loads. ♥ I promise to try harder to be a better friend from now on!
I shall try not to be discouraged by certain people. Afterall, I can always try my best, and whatever else that happens will be out of my hands (and my control).
- Mood: upset
- Mood:
sad
"It's not what you think," I told Connor in my dream. "I'm not just infatuated with him because he's an actor --"
"I know," Connor interrupted. "That's what's worse. It's like you don't even notice the things the rest of the world does because you're so busy seeing him as a little wounded bird whose broken wing you can fix --"
"What are you talking about?" I exploded. "He's not some charity case." I concentrated on seeing things as Connor would. I wasn't trying to replace him, but there were enough similarities between my relationship with him as a child and my relationship with Alex now to make me realise that I couldn't help but compare the two. Like Connor, Alex protected me -- and he was the only person I let close enough to do it. Like Connor, Alex could finish my sentences before I did. But unlike Connor, for whom I had ultimately come too late, I was just in time to take care of Alex.
In the dream, a run of zebras skirted the edge of the plain, and when they distracted me Connor leaned forward to press his suit. "You're just the one to make it all better, Cassie, don't you see that? That's what you do best. You took care of your mother and you father and me and Ophelia. You collect other people's problems the way some people collect rare coins."
At this point in the dream, I tried to wake up. I didn't wan't to believe Connor; I didn't want to listen.
"There's a problem with wounded birds, Cassie," Connor said. "Either they fly away from you one day, or else they never get better. They stay hurt no matter what you do."
-- Jodi Picoult, Picture Perfect
- Mood: melancholy
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crystalove87 a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :] Although I'm always so irritating and never online, you still bother to bug me anyway :D Thanks for all the arashi love and uh, yjapan temptations, i think..? :p I hope you had fun on your special day (where you gain one more year and more wrinkles XDD)And now I'm going to sms you because for once I'm online and YOU'RE NOT!
- Mood:
excited
Also, I just realised there's only a week left to CSFC! No more excuses that we "haven't learnt it yet" or "no one taught us" or "we're just year 2s" or "osce's just gonna be an informal test" haha, but I find that these aren't the reasons why I'm gonna miss csfc.. I think I met alot of people I wouldn't normally have talked to, but.. Of course there're some regrets too. Stuff that's been bugging me for the past 5 weeks, and somehow I don't know why the solution seems so clear now? t.r.y. :)
I just wish sometimes that
1) words were easier
2) life doesn't still feel like i'm an awkward teen trying to struggle through teenage blues
3) i really could charm people lah
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say ‘I’m chocolate - I invite you’
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Chocolate roads and trees and birds and bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily,
Every kind of purple parcel too.
And if the dog did try and grab a mouthful,
You could bite him back he’d taste delightful!
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could be a soccer super star.
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle,
A shot a goal would even break the bar.
And if you scored the winner
You could have the cup for your dinner.
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Riding in the car would be a tasty treat.
Changing gears would soon become a problem
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When you arrive at your destination,
You’ll be greeted with an exclamation!
Wouldn’t it be nice?
(much thanks to kayleigh hurhur)
- Mood:
bouncy
Unfortunately, I'm feeling so horrified at myself because I feel disgustingly unfit and flabby, I need to jog!! I seriously want to recover soon so I can finally start jogging again D: I took a long walk home today though (by alighting a few stops before my house), because the night weather was so nice and cool :) I also needed (wanted) to do some alone-thinking, and the walk home helped stablize my whirly mind.
This is really such a pointless entry, but I felt like making one anyway! Haha I'm off to bathe now, *poof!
p.s. Just to remind myself because I don't have pen and paper now; when taking history:
> ask the patient how he's coping with things
> remember to ask "is there anything else you want to tell me" before ending
> check timeline! remember that pt's problems may not be the cause of current hospitalisation
- Mood: uncomfortable
In any case, I was reading this article the other day, and I somehow website-hopped to this place and found this really interesting.. thing? XD The article's called "the fantasy of being thin", and I really thought that some of the things that were written there were quite true. I think we're all made differently, and recently, I've been thinking that as long as we know that we're healthy, that's all that matters right? It shouldn't matter how we look at all; and so I've been trying to jog faithfully to be healthy haha :p Plan is, unfortunately failing right now due to current sickness. D: But I do plan to jog at least 2 times on weekdays and once over the weekend though, I hope I can keep that up! I don't think that "having no time" should be an excuse for not exercising, because really, even if I jog for 30 minutes only, that's still better than being a couch potato right, hurhur :)
So anyway let's hope I can keep this plan up during cliincals la haha XD Actually I think the hardest would be to wake up early on a weekend to jog, just because I'm such a pig :p Once I start jogging though I feel awesome, so I must remind myself more of that feeling to motivate me hehh
Now, I shall whisk myself off to read up for procedural skills tmr (in tune with my new resolution that I'll read up more before class the next day haha)! Long day tmr, and since so many people in medicine are getting sick, I hope we all get better soon too! =X
Oh yes and ps, 10 points to whoever can guess where I got BBR from! :D
- Mood: /coughcough
