when the fatigue sets in..
- Mood:
sad
"It's not what you think," I told Connor in my dream. "I'm not just infatuated with him because he's an actor --"
"I know," Connor interrupted. "That's what's worse. It's like you don't even notice the things the rest of the world does because you're so busy seeing him as a little wounded bird whose broken wing you can fix --"
"What are you talking about?" I exploded. "He's not some charity case." I concentrated on seeing things as Connor would. I wasn't trying to replace him, but there were enough similarities between my relationship with him as a child and my relationship with Alex now to make me realise that I couldn't help but compare the two. Like Connor, Alex protected me -- and he was the only person I let close enough to do it. Like Connor, Alex could finish my sentences before I did. But unlike Connor, for whom I had ultimately come too late, I was just in time to take care of Alex.
In the dream, a run of zebras skirted the edge of the plain, and when they distracted me Connor leaned forward to press his suit. "You're just the one to make it all better, Cassie, don't you see that? That's what you do best. You took care of your mother and you father and me and Ophelia. You collect other people's problems the way some people collect rare coins."
At this point in the dream, I tried to wake up. I didn't wan't to believe Connor; I didn't want to listen.
"There's a problem with wounded birds, Cassie," Connor said. "Either they fly away from you one day, or else they never get better. They stay hurt no matter what you do."
-- Jodi Picoult, Picture Perfect
- Mood: melancholy
Haha my first post in a looooong time and it's to wish ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
crystalove87 a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :] Although I'm always so irritating and never online, you still bother to bug me anyway :D Thanks for all the arashi love and uh, yjapan temptations, i think..? :p I hope you had fun on your special day (where you gain one more year and more wrinkles XDD)
And now I'm going to sms you because for once I'm online and YOU'RE NOT!
crystalove87 a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :] Although I'm always so irritating and never online, you still bother to bug me anyway :D Thanks for all the arashi love and uh, yjapan temptations, i think..? :p I hope you had fun on your special day (where you gain one more year and more wrinkles XDD)And now I'm going to sms you because for once I'm online and YOU'RE NOT!
- Mood:
excited
Sometimes, I realised that some things are just so hard to put it into words.. Everytime I do I seem to put my foot further into my mouth, euwwch! I don't know, sometimes I wonder if I'm very mean. There's all these thoughts and opinions in me that I feel, but I don't quite know how to express. And I think it became apparent in tonight's msn convos.. :/ I don't quite know why, but what people think matter to me, and.. I'm scared.
Also, I just realised there's only a week left to CSFC! No more excuses that we "haven't learnt it yet" or "no one taught us" or "we're just year 2s" or "osce's just gonna be an informal test" haha, but I find that these aren't the reasons why I'm gonna miss csfc.. I think I met alot of people I wouldn't normally have talked to, but.. Of course there're some regrets too. Stuff that's been bugging me for the past 5 weeks, and somehow I don't know why the solution seems so clear now? t.r.y. :)
I just wish sometimes that
1) words were easier
2) life doesn't still feel like i'm an awkward teen trying to struggle through teenage blues
3) i really could charm people lah
Also, I just realised there's only a week left to CSFC! No more excuses that we "haven't learnt it yet" or "no one taught us" or "we're just year 2s" or "osce's just gonna be an informal test" haha, but I find that these aren't the reasons why I'm gonna miss csfc.. I think I met alot of people I wouldn't normally have talked to, but.. Of course there're some regrets too. Stuff that's been bugging me for the past 5 weeks, and somehow I don't know why the solution seems so clear now? t.r.y. :)
I just wish sometimes that
1) words were easier
2) life doesn't still feel like i'm an awkward teen trying to struggle through teenage blues
3) i really could charm people lah
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say ‘I’m chocolate - I invite you’
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Chocolate roads and trees and birds and bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily,
Every kind of purple parcel too.
And if the dog did try and grab a mouthful,
You could bite him back he’d taste delightful!
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could be a soccer super star.
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle,
A shot a goal would even break the bar.
And if you scored the winner
You could have the cup for your dinner.
Wouldn’t it be nice?
*Wouldn’t it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Riding in the car would be a tasty treat.
Changing gears would soon become a problem
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When you arrive at your destination,
You’ll be greeted with an exclamation!
Wouldn’t it be nice?
(much thanks to kayleigh hurhur)
- Mood:
bouncy
CSFC today was really interesting, and unexpectedly so! I didn't expect to learn so much in a day that was supposed to be spent learning "communication", but I guess it really helped break us into the "taking patient history" mode. :) So tiring though, these days its been so fun, but I haven't seen some friends around at all, plus.. It's been sucky being so sick while on csfc (amongst other things).. Some people get grumpy, I get cranky too sometimes because after today I'm on the verge of losing my voice D; I hope the next 6 weeks will be fun though, I think I'm starting to get really comfy around my big CG, which is a really good thing cos I'm actually looking foward to spending time with them at AH :D
Unfortunately, I'm feeling so horrified at myself because I feel disgustingly unfit and flabby, I need to jog!! I seriously want to recover soon so I can finally start jogging again D: I took a long walk home today though (by alighting a few stops before my house), because the night weather was so nice and cool :) I also needed (wanted) to do some alone-thinking, and the walk home helped stablize my whirly mind.
This is really such a pointless entry, but I felt like making one anyway! Haha I'm off to bathe now, *poof!
p.s. Just to remind myself because I don't have pen and paper now; when taking history:
> ask the patient how he's coping with things
> remember to ask "is there anything else you want to tell me" before ending
> check timeline! remember that pt's problems may not be the cause of current hospitalisation
Unfortunately, I'm feeling so horrified at myself because I feel disgustingly unfit and flabby, I need to jog!! I seriously want to recover soon so I can finally start jogging again D: I took a long walk home today though (by alighting a few stops before my house), because the night weather was so nice and cool :) I also needed (wanted) to do some alone-thinking, and the walk home helped stablize my whirly mind.
This is really such a pointless entry, but I felt like making one anyway! Haha I'm off to bathe now, *poof!
p.s. Just to remind myself because I don't have pen and paper now; when taking history:
> ask the patient how he's coping with things
> remember to ask "is there anything else you want to tell me" before ending
> check timeline! remember that pt's problems may not be the cause of current hospitalisation
- Mood:
uncomfortable
I've been meaning to post this for the past few days, but I just haven't had the time, between school starting and getting sick! =X
In any case, I was reading this article the other day, and I somehow website-hopped to this place and found this really interesting.. thing? XD The article's called "the fantasy of being thin", and I really thought that some of the things that were written there were quite true. I think we're all made differently, and recently, I've been thinking that as long as we know that we're healthy, that's all that matters right? It shouldn't matter how we look at all; and so I've been trying to jog faithfully to be healthy haha :p Plan is, unfortunately failing right now due to current sickness. D: But I do plan to jog at least 2 times on weekdays and once over the weekend though, I hope I can keep that up! I don't think that "having no time" should be an excuse for not exercising, because really, even if I jog for 30 minutes only, that's still better than being a couch potato right, hurhur :)
So anyway let's hope I can keep this plan up during cliincals la haha XD Actually I think the hardest would be to wake up early on a weekend to jog, just because I'm such a pig :p Once I start jogging though I feel awesome, so I must remind myself more of that feeling to motivate me hehh
Now, I shall whisk myself off to read up for procedural skills tmr (in tune with my new resolution that I'll read up more before class the next day haha)! Long day tmr, and since so many people in medicine are getting sick, I hope we all get better soon too! =X
Oh yes and ps, 10 points to whoever can guess where I got BBR from! :D
In any case, I was reading this article the other day, and I somehow website-hopped to this place and found this really interesting.. thing? XD The article's called "the fantasy of being thin", and I really thought that some of the things that were written there were quite true. I think we're all made differently, and recently, I've been thinking that as long as we know that we're healthy, that's all that matters right? It shouldn't matter how we look at all; and so I've been trying to jog faithfully to be healthy haha :p Plan is, unfortunately failing right now due to current sickness. D: But I do plan to jog at least 2 times on weekdays and once over the weekend though, I hope I can keep that up! I don't think that "having no time" should be an excuse for not exercising, because really, even if I jog for 30 minutes only, that's still better than being a couch potato right, hurhur :)
So anyway let's hope I can keep this plan up during cliincals la haha XD Actually I think the hardest would be to wake up early on a weekend to jog, just because I'm such a pig :p Once I start jogging though I feel awesome, so I must remind myself more of that feeling to motivate me hehh
Now, I shall whisk myself off to read up for procedural skills tmr (in tune with my new resolution that I'll read up more before class the next day haha)! Long day tmr, and since so many people in medicine are getting sick, I hope we all get better soon too! =X
Oh yes and ps, 10 points to whoever can guess where I got BBR from! :D
- Mood: /coughcough
.. has finally been lifted! Made my first successful chocolate confectionary today, together with yummylicious snickerdoodles! :D
Weather's awesome now too, which puts me in a happy mood. :) I'm sitting in my study looking out of the glass doors and I see 2 huge towers of clouds floating in the sky.. Which just makes me think of Aiba's cotton candy experiment. XD
Yesterday my mum asked me (yet again) if I wanted to have a 21st birthday party, and I think she means it for real! Haha I told her no, because:-
1) So much trouble to organise myself! Haha not that I'm opposed to a party thingy, but I always thought that if its your birthday, other people should be organising it for you right? Why would you organise a party for yourself inviting people to come tell you happy birthday? :p
2) Surprises are MUCH funner hehheh /sneaky sideglance
3) Huge party for all my friends from different places would just be so awkward! They don't even know each other too! The best is.. for all my friends from different places to throw me multiple different parties.. //sneaky sideglance again XD
Hurhur okay I could continue the list but dinnertime now, so I'll continue this post later! :D
Weather's awesome now too, which puts me in a happy mood. :) I'm sitting in my study looking out of the glass doors and I see 2 huge towers of clouds floating in the sky.. Which just makes me think of Aiba's cotton candy experiment. XD
Yesterday my mum asked me (yet again) if I wanted to have a 21st birthday party, and I think she means it for real! Haha I told her no, because:-
1) So much trouble to organise myself! Haha not that I'm opposed to a party thingy, but I always thought that if its your birthday, other people should be organising it for you right? Why would you organise a party for yourself inviting people to come tell you happy birthday? :p
2) Surprises are MUCH funner hehheh /sneaky sideglance
3) Huge party for all my friends from different places would just be so awkward! They don't even know each other too! The best is.. for all my friends from different places to throw me multiple different parties.. //sneaky sideglance again XD
Hurhur okay I could continue the list but dinnertime now, so I'll continue this post later! :D
- Mood:
thirsty
Our song is the slamming screen doors,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real low
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
I heard that randomly on the radio today, and it made me smile and want to cry at the same time.
Anyway, today I slept so much I (i) feel like puking now, (ii) have a headache, (iii) but still feel sleepy every 2 hours ! I think it's a sign I need more sleep. :p Note that (i) and (ii) could be signs of my immense sleep debt as well. XD
I finally have something I wanna bake, I hope it turns out well! Am severely disabled because my mixer thingy (what do you call that??) died on me so I can't make so much stuff that I wanna :( I hope my parents get a new one soon hurhurhur.. My mum said we should get a good one since I'm baking so much more now! *gleam in the eye
Tmr's a fun day I think! I'm gonna get up at 630am in the morning to bake, and hopefully I can get em out of the oven before my sister and parents go to work :D Then probably off to the stadium/gym to jog.. and I'm meetingcrystalove87 for lunch yay! In the afternoon I figured I should probably file my stuff and get it out of the way.. And get som organisation done, in case I have to study for vivas.. :/
Also, note to self to return kayleigh her you-know-what (or rather, she-should-know-what) :p Haha kayleigh if you see this and know what I mean pls bug me for it! XD and then we can finally go out too! :)
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real low
'cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again
I heard that randomly on the radio today, and it made me smile and want to cry at the same time.
Anyway, today I slept so much I (i) feel like puking now, (ii) have a headache, (iii) but still feel sleepy every 2 hours ! I think it's a sign I need more sleep. :p Note that (i) and (ii) could be signs of my immense sleep debt as well. XD
I finally have something I wanna bake, I hope it turns out well! Am severely disabled because my mixer thingy (what do you call that??) died on me so I can't make so much stuff that I wanna :( I hope my parents get a new one soon hurhurhur.. My mum said we should get a good one since I'm baking so much more now! *gleam in the eye
Tmr's a fun day I think! I'm gonna get up at 630am in the morning to bake, and hopefully I can get em out of the oven before my sister and parents go to work :D Then probably off to the stadium/gym to jog.. and I'm meeting
crystalove87 for lunch yay! In the afternoon I figured I should probably file my stuff and get it out of the way.. And get som organisation done, in case I have to study for vivas.. :/Also, note to self to return kayleigh her you-know-what (or rather, she-should-know-what) :p Haha kayleigh if you see this and know what I mean pls bug me for it! XD and then we can finally go out too! :)
- Mood:
ditzy
Is there something wrong with me, I'm at home the 2 days after my huge exam ends and I haven't even gone out yet since..
YJ and I agreed that post-microb was rather anti-climatic, somehow, perhaps because I might be viva-ed next week?! =/ Been sleeping ALOT, and it isn't enough yet, I'm still tired ! Finally found a recipe that I'm interested in baking, so providing the weather holds up, I shall go jog later and get ingredients at the same time, yumyum :D I hope it turns out well, so my family will have good stuff to eat tonight !
I'm so boring, even I myself am bored outta my mind at this post.
To lunch now, because its late, although what I really wanna do is sleep more.. !
YJ and I agreed that post-microb was rather anti-climatic, somehow, perhaps because I might be viva-ed next week?! =/ Been sleeping ALOT, and it isn't enough yet, I'm still tired ! Finally found a recipe that I'm interested in baking, so providing the weather holds up, I shall go jog later and get ingredients at the same time, yumyum :D I hope it turns out well, so my family will have good stuff to eat tonight !
I'm so boring, even I myself am bored outta my mind at this post.
To lunch now, because its late, although what I really wanna do is sleep more.. !
- Mood:
troubled
Beacuse I need it. :(
いつも通りの君でいい
なんて言わない方がいい
そこからまた始まりだろう？
これが君には似合ってる
人は人 自分は自分
比べた時点で負けてる
自分に負けない強さが
どんな壁をも壊してく
時には泣いていいよ
弱いとこ見せても大丈夫
でもそこで腐るな！
まだやれる その先の夢
どんないくつもの言葉よりも
たった一つの言葉がいい
まずは自分で踏み出してみて
「頑張れ!」 そんな安いヤツでいい
いつも通りの君でいい
なんて言わない方がいい
そこからまた始まりだろう？
君に届け 僕らの言葉
今は悩む事もあるでしょう
ヘコむ事だってあるでしょう
でも未来のどこかで君と
笑い合えれば道は作られる
どんないくつの言葉よりも
たった一つの言葉がいい
やっと一歩踏み出せたよね
「頑張れ!!」 ほらね似合っているよ
AM GOING TO FAIL NEURO. :( :(
I hope microb will be better tmr.
I never thought I'd see the day when there's a chance my microb might be better than neuro.
*strangled laugh
One more day!
Am not going to get much sleep tonight, that's for sure!
いつも通りの君でいい
なんて言わない方がいい
そこからまた始まりだろう？
これが君には似合ってる
人は人 自分は自分
比べた時点で負けてる
自分に負けない強さが
どんな壁をも壊してく
時には泣いていいよ
弱いとこ見せても大丈夫
でもそこで腐るな！
まだやれる その先の夢
どんないくつもの言葉よりも
たった一つの言葉がいい
まずは自分で踏み出してみて
「頑張れ!」 そんな安いヤツでいい
いつも通りの君でいい
なんて言わない方がいい
そこからまた始まりだろう？
君に届け 僕らの言葉
今は悩む事もあるでしょう
ヘコむ事だってあるでしょう
でも未来のどこかで君と
笑い合えれば道は作られる
どんないくつの言葉よりも
たった一つの言葉がいい
やっと一歩踏み出せたよね
「頑張れ!!」 ほらね似合っているよ
AM GOING TO FAIL NEURO. :( :(
I hope microb will be better tmr.
I never thought I'd see the day when there's a chance my microb might be better than neuro.
*strangled laugh
One more day!
Am not going to get much sleep tonight, that's for sure!
- Mood: worried
YAY the dark CA weeks are over! ..Although pros are starting in 3 weeks time again. T_T
My genetics was happily an 80%, although that cannot erase the horror of my shitty microb marks. D: Oh why do I do shockingly badly for microb even though this was the one paper (in all the other microb cas) that I studied my guts out the hardest for? :( Please don't let me get vivas! I'm just glad that there's essays in microb pros, because if its TF again without a doubt I WILL FAIL. I'm now nervously waiting my other CA marks though, I hope I do relatively okay!
Yesterday night was the first night I slept properly (stage 4 deep sleep hurhur) in probably 2 weeks? The last 2 weeks were really painful, even though I was tired at night I couldn't even sleep! I think I lost 1kg or so over the exam period too, despite missing out on my normal jogging haha XD This just shows how stressed I was and how hard I studied. :p
After cas yesterday, I rushed home to buy stuff and baked cupcakes! Lemon cupcakes yumyum.. Haha I think I have beginner's luck at baking, I bet the next time I try the same recipe again it won't be as nice. XD Anyway I ended up with ALOT of batter somehow, and that resulted in 80+ cupcakes! Of course they were really small la, not the huge kind.. :D Am really proud of them, but really, I'm too lazy to take a picture of them so TOO BAD. I'll bring more to school the next time I bake because I never seem to bring enough! :)
Right now I'm feeling sad again over microb, WHYWHY! I studied so hard for it some more sigh. Haha okay it's a not a devastating sadness, but more like frustration, stupid TF! I shall go download utaoni in HQ to watch all over again <33 :D
My genetics was happily an 80%, although that cannot erase the horror of my shitty microb marks. D: Oh why do I do shockingly badly for microb even though this was the one paper (in all the other microb cas) that I studied my guts out the hardest for? :( Please don't let me get vivas! I'm just glad that there's essays in microb pros, because if its TF again without a doubt I WILL FAIL. I'm now nervously waiting my other CA marks though, I hope I do relatively okay!
Yesterday night was the first night I slept properly (stage 4 deep sleep hurhur) in probably 2 weeks? The last 2 weeks were really painful, even though I was tired at night I couldn't even sleep! I think I lost 1kg or so over the exam period too, despite missing out on my normal jogging haha XD This just shows how stressed I was and how hard I studied. :p
After cas yesterday, I rushed home to buy stuff and baked cupcakes! Lemon cupcakes yumyum.. Haha I think I have beginner's luck at baking, I bet the next time I try the same recipe again it won't be as nice. XD Anyway I ended up with ALOT of batter somehow, and that resulted in 80+ cupcakes! Of course they were really small la, not the huge kind.. :D Am really proud of them, but really, I'm too lazy to take a picture of them so TOO BAD. I'll bring more to school the next time I bake because I never seem to bring enough! :)
Right now I'm feeling sad again over microb, WHYWHY! I studied so hard for it some more sigh. Haha okay it's a not a devastating sadness, but more like frustration, stupid TF! I shall go download utaoni in HQ to watch all over again <33 :D
- Mood: thirsty
Yesterday when I was studying, I discovered JKpop on some digital radio station that Mediacorp has. Andrew once asked me how come I listen to so much Japanese songs ("is english not good enough for you?" XD) haha and I realised that it's because.. Sometimes its easier without words. Not everything has to be understood sometimes, and at least there's no english floating around to distract me when I'm trying to remember other hard medical terms! =/
3 papers down, 2 to go !
- Mood: hesitant
Hmm.. I just felt like posting this song that I heard on some show and youtubed up haha.. Despite the fact that it's a Korean song, I think the lyrics and melody's pretty lovely. :) I've been feeling cranky and tired these days, most days I really don't want to go to school either, and sometimes I just want to be selfish.. Oh well,
20 days to go.
20 days to go.
( why's it so hard? )
- Mood:
frustrated
How could anyone think that Robert Pattinson is cute/hot/good-looking/mesmerizing/etc?!
Look at that deranged murderous look!
This is one vampire I'd DEFINITELY run away from! :p
p.s. Okay I have more to life than Twilight vampires obviously, but I've no patience to sit down and type now while Pathology looms ahead. Shall update soon! :D (also to push deranged murder away from top spot on my LJ)
Look at that deranged murderous look!
This is one vampire I'd DEFINITELY run away from! :p
p.s. Okay I have more to life than Twilight vampires obviously, but I've no patience to sit down and type now while Pathology looms ahead. Shall update soon! :D (also to push deranged murder away from top spot on my LJ)
- Mood:
amused
Something scary happened yesterday! Due to my really lousy immunology scores last CA (like really lousy, rock-bottom-viva-style lousy), my mentor actually sent me and email to ask if things were okay and if I needed help! Was totally shocked+scared after that email haha, although its nice to know that he's actually making an effort to email me, a measly year 2 :p But he was pretty nice about it, and said only my immuno scores were worrying and the rest of my CAs were "better than his ever were" XD
Second thing:- I stumbled upon a random discussion online in some forum about feminism, the question being whether (and I quote) "feminists are real or whether they just can't get a date". Of course given the gender-challenging nature of the topic, the discussion was quite fiery, with amusing biased opinions from uninformed (and i'm saying this politely) guys and girls alike.
But there were a few interesting opinions that I thought encapsulated the idea of feminism quite completely. One of them's pretty long, so run under the cut below if you're interested to read more.
( what feminism is all about. )
Very, very true comment above about feminism, but I think at the end of the day, feminism is still an ideal, and as with all ideals, the theory is always more rose-coloured and peachy than the Real Thing. As much as we want to have gender equality, do we really practice it? It's not about things like voting, or getting a position at work, and things like that. Although we want all that, sometimes (at least I feel) women still demand to be treated like, well, women. The more cliched examples are how alot of women want men to be "gentlemanly" and open doors for them, how men should give in when they cry (but men cannot cry, because ! it is not masculine), how they want guys to pay for their meal because - they have an XY chromosome, etc. Of course I'm not saying everyone does that - but there are some who do all the same.
And I think this amusing quote that I found from somewhere else awhile ago summarises the above situation quite nicely.
"Disabled people want equality, but still want their own parking."
Quite tongue-in-cheek, but nevertheless makes a valid point I think.
Second thing:- I stumbled upon a random discussion online in some forum about feminism, the question being whether (and I quote) "feminists are real or whether they just can't get a date". Of course given the gender-challenging nature of the topic, the discussion was quite fiery, with amusing biased opinions from uninformed (and i'm saying this politely) guys and girls alike.
But there were a few interesting opinions that I thought encapsulated the idea of feminism quite completely. One of them's pretty long, so run under the cut below if you're interested to read more.
( what feminism is all about. )
Very, very true comment above about feminism, but I think at the end of the day, feminism is still an ideal, and as with all ideals, the theory is always more rose-coloured and peachy than the Real Thing. As much as we want to have gender equality, do we really practice it? It's not about things like voting, or getting a position at work, and things like that. Although we want all that, sometimes (at least I feel) women still demand to be treated like, well, women. The more cliched examples are how alot of women want men to be "gentlemanly" and open doors for them, how men should give in when they cry (but men cannot cry, because ! it is not masculine), how they want guys to pay for their meal because - they have an XY chromosome, etc. Of course I'm not saying everyone does that - but there are some who do all the same.
And I think this amusing quote that I found from somewhere else awhile ago summarises the above situation quite nicely.
"Disabled people want equality, but still want their own parking."
Quite tongue-in-cheek, but nevertheless makes a valid point I think.
- Mood:
busy
So.. This song is for someone, who in all probability would never get to read this anyway, haha.. But I just wanted to post it here, because this song is encouraging, because it's helped me through rough times too, and simply because..
I like it. :p
Smile again, I'm smiling again
Smile again, I'm smiling again
So Soイイことなんてない
方向オンチの情熱Live
毎日 a Fool 墓穴掘る Fall
だけど何かにあこがれてたい
感動しない日々の中で
不確かな希望がBelieve In Love
いつか靴底で踏みつけたFaithが
君に出会って血を燃やす
So so, there are no good things
A passion with no sense of direction is how I live
Everyday I’m a fool who digs myself into trouble and falls
But I want to be attracted to something
In my unexciting days
My unclear hope is to believe in love
Someday my faith was trod upon
I will meet you and my blood will boil
砕け散った気分なら
ためらわずに
怒りをヤワな自分
自身に向ける Wow wow
When my emotions are torn to pieces I won’t hesitate
I’ll face my own anger and weakness, wow wow
まるで ひとりぼっちだと
嘆くそばで
ガレキに咲いた花が
ユラユラ見てる
While lamenting that I am all alone
I see a flower that has bloomed amid the rubble
誰かが 誰かを
支えて生きているんだ
単純な 真実が
傷をいやしてく
Someone is living to lend their support to someone else
That simple truth will heal their wounds
Smile Again ありがとう
Smile Again 泣きながら
生れてきた僕たちは
たぶんピンチに強い
Smile Again 君がいて
Smile Again うれしいよ
言わないけど はじめての
深い いとおしさは嵐
Smile again, thanks
Smile again, as I’m crying
I think we were born to be strong when times get tough
Smile again, you are here
Smile again, I am happy
I don’t say it, but the first deep affection I’ve felt is Arashi (a storm)
つらい時は甘えてと
強く思う
大事な人の愛が
ハートの包帯 Wow wow
I strongly believe we should be fawned upon in the tough times
The love of someone special is the bandage for our hearts, wow wow
ウマクなんて生きれない
それは誇り
助けてくれた君は
同じ眼をしてる
I can’t live life perfectly, I’m proud of that
You helped me out, you seemed that way yourself
余裕をなくして
知らずに傷つけたかい
許して 許されると
人は素直だね
We probably lost the ability our composure and unknowingly got hurt
But forgiving and being forgiven makes people honest
Smile Again ありがとう
Smile Again 何度でも
立ち上がれる気がしてる
僕の勇気は泉
Smile Again ひとりでは
Smile Again いられない
とまどうほど切実な
祈るような 恋は嵐
Smile again, thanks
Smile again, for so many things
My courage to feel like I can stand up again is a fountain
Smile again, I cannot
Smile again, I can’t be alone
The confused urgency seems like a prayer for love that is Arashi (a storm)
So So イイことなんてない
方向オンチの情熱Live
毎日 a Fool 墓穴掘る Fall
だけど何かにあこがれてたい
感動しない日々の中で
不確かな希望がBelieve In Love
いつか靴底で踏みつけたFaithが
君に出会って 血を燃やす
So so, there are no good things
A passion with no sense of direction is how I live
Everyday I’m a fool who digs myself into trouble and falls
But I want to be attracted to something
In my unexciting days
My unclear hope is to believe in love
Someday my faith was trod upon
I will meet you and my blood will boil
Smile Again ありがとう
Smile Again 泣きながら
生れてきた僕たちは
たぶんピンチに強い
Smile Again 君がいて
Smile Again うれしいよ
言わないけど はじめての
深い いとおしさは嵐
Smile again, thanks
Smile again, as I’m crying
I think we were born to be strong when times get tough
Smile again, you are here
Smile again, I am happy
I don’t say it, but the first deep affection I’ve felt is Arashi (a storm)
- Mood: worried
Finally CA horror week, part 1 is over.
Haha, contrary to the excitement I'm supposed to feel - I'm actually feeling hollow-empty inside. There wasn't even a real post-CA celebration kinda thing, cos I had to go off early.. :( And while the rest of the world was out there watching movies and what not, I had a.. normal dinner at home. And caught up on sleep.
I don't know why, but I feel so distanced from so many people nowadays.
Haha I guess I'm just in one of those undecided kind of slumps, where you know everything just seems to make everything else worse.. XD I feel my self-worth plummeting actually, sigh. D:
Okay, I think I should sleep early, because 1.5 hours of sleep last night is clearly doing me in today haha..
And because tomorrow will be a better day, maybe. :)
Haha, contrary to the excitement I'm supposed to feel - I'm actually feeling hollow-empty inside. There wasn't even a real post-CA celebration kinda thing, cos I had to go off early.. :( And while the rest of the world was out there watching movies and what not, I had a.. normal dinner at home. And caught up on sleep.
I don't know why, but I feel so distanced from so many people nowadays.
Haha I guess I'm just in one of those undecided kind of slumps, where you know everything just seems to make everything else worse.. XD I feel my self-worth plummeting actually, sigh. D:
Okay, I think I should sleep early, because 1.5 hours of sleep last night is clearly doing me in today haha..
And because tomorrow will be a better day, maybe. :)
- Mood:
listless - Music:Arashi - Tabidachi no Asa
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
Horribly old-school song, but sigh, it's been a shitty day. D: Terribly long day at school, beginning at 8am, plus our lunch break was shortened to 10 minutes! I was floating through the entire day, I didn't even know what I was doing - just attend lectures, take notes, make passably appropriate responses to questions to somehow seem like I'm still alive.
Somehow, I don't even know what I'm typing here right now, I can't even put this storm inside of me into words at all.. Or maybe possibly the lyrics above say exactly how I feel.
Okay, off to virology right now, yet again! D:
May tomorrow be a better day.
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
Horribly old-school song, but sigh, it's been a shitty day. D: Terribly long day at school, beginning at 8am, plus our lunch break was shortened to 10 minutes! I was floating through the entire day, I didn't even know what I was doing - just attend lectures, take notes, make passably appropriate responses to questions to somehow seem like I'm still alive.
Somehow, I don't even know what I'm typing here right now, I can't even put this storm inside of me into words at all.. Or maybe possibly the lyrics above say exactly how I feel.
Okay, off to virology right now, yet again! D:
May tomorrow be a better day.
- Mood:
distressed
Today on my way home, I saw this message at a busstop:-
It takes one minute to have a crush on someone
One hour to like someone
One day to love someone
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone
Haha I can't help but think it's quite true actually - but let's hope I won't ever need that lifetime. :D
So many days, weeks, months spent together, what else can I say,
but Thanks? :)
It takes one minute to have a crush on someone
One hour to like someone
One day to love someone
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone
Haha I can't help but think it's quite true actually - but let's hope I won't ever need that lifetime. :D
So many days, weeks, months spent together, what else can I say,
but Thanks? :)
- Mood:
contented
